Beware – touchy-feely words below:
I had a thought today about how funny this world is – it started from a song lyric spinning around in my head.
“Can’t forget that I’m golden.”
That idea is a major part of success in my experience – to remember my worth, and to understand how much I really deserve. There are a few things in my life that have helped me understand my own value.
The first one was transitioning. Before this, I couldn’t see a future for myself. I couldn’t see a reason to do anything, to build anything, to work on myself. Before this, there was only distraction. I would spend entire days behind a keyboard trying in vain just to escape reality. I was a sad person who learned to act happy when required.
The second thing that helped me understand my worth was escorting. I had already been living as a woman for several years at this point. I had a future now – I had a reason to build up instead of escape. I had to find a home within myself before I could do anything meaningful with my existence. In this career, I have taught myself real skills. Marketing, writing, advertising, customer service, bookkeeping, traveling, web development, photography. I’m a Jill-of-all-trades, sure. And I could stand to improve in all these skills. The point though, is that that I run a business in which I enrich the lives of others directly. I have been told repeatedly, “I don’t know what I would have done without you.” and, “Since meeting you I am so happy, and I smile all the time for no reason other than I know you.” Do you know what that does to a person’s self-esteem?
It’s jet fuel.
I hope you, reader, have found your own fuel. Whether it’s your kids, your career, or whatever. And maybe if you’re running low you can have some of mine.
Supporting my friends is the one of the most satisfying parts of this work. I’ll be your cheerleader, your confidant, and your rock if you need one.
Okay, enough feels. The song mentioned above was “Fukk Sleep” by A$AP Rocky.